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humbled...

Thursday, January 27, 2005 11:10 PM

i was feeling down and rejected, my pride bubble burst...
why me? why do i have to be the one, out of six ppl to leave the group because the max number for assignment is five? why am i not included? why can't we divide into three in each group instead?

all kinds of thoughts came flooding through my mind... what kind of friends are they? how can they bear to do such things to me? why did i accepted their suggestion? am i just so 'disposable'?

i walked away from them, and i poured my heart out to my close friends... and they symphatised with me and assured me. i was already teary...gosh, and i realized i haven't cried for sooo long...

i was adament about attending CF that day, afterall we're just gonna watch the Passion Of Christ and i've watch it before adi. anyhow, i still went into the theather hall.

friend of the day: Mary
She's got such a sweet and gentle spirit. God must have touched me through her... her presence and little dose of humour help me stand up again.

so i stayed back to watch the movie, and was once again reminded of the sufferings that Jesus went through for me. Oouch!! the betrayal! rejection!!and the beatings!!! what i experiece is only so little as compared to Him.

i am humbled by this experience and pray that i will always be.

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Home is where the heart belongs

Monday, January 17, 2005 5:05 AM

i know i shouldn't be complaining, but i'm a city girl stuck in a small little town now.... i miss staying at home, reading free newspaper on the comfy sofa, eating home-cooked food, being 'chauffer', massage my dad n get massages back in return...haha

i'm getting tired of thinking what to eat... tired of eating bread, maggi mee,hawker food etc... any suggestions for some quick and easy fix?

good points of studying in sg long
it's a quiet little township, where the pace of life is relatively slow. now my favourite past time is swimming and studying... hehe, hopefully i'll get better grades and a slimer figure at the end of two years. Meanwhile, i look forward to go home every weekend. now we're just waiting for approval to shift the saturday lecture to another day. ~pls pray!!

otherwise, i'm happy and doing fine.=)

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thoughts from sg long

Thursday, January 06, 2005 11:23 AM

staying in sg long made me realised that knowledge and living skills cannot be taken away from you. this is where i learned to stand up, and apply the things mum taught me at home. ( which i hardly do) Here i have to to my own laundry, clean the room , throw rubbish, take care of my own meals, remember to bring my keys, plan ahead for transport etc.

i actually had a choice to keep all my laundry and bring 'em home during weekends, but i dislike the idea of carrying a luggage here and there every week.

i don't have radio, television, and comp here at the moment.distraction-less
this is where singing church songs unto God soothe my soul a bit.
thank God for some christian housemates, and CF where we get connected with members from the body of Christ.

staying with friends oso strengthened our bonds a lot. As there is nothing much to do now, we have lot's of chatting sessions, card games and visit to friends' houses. that's where we share ideas on house arrangements, recipe etc.

we oso have a swimming pool in our condo. looks like i'm gonna be hired as a swimming instructor soon. haha.

thank God for this opportunity to learn, it is indeed a new phase of my life. surely there will be hiccups along the way, but i will and choose to put my trust in Him.

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sg long week 1

just shifted to sg long, didn't sleep well for the first two nights coz not used to the room arrangement, i think i change the arrangement 5 times before i settled down.
so tiring.

a recap- first day in sg long, went there, annie's friend was there to help me carry my stuff, fixed the cupboard, and study table. dumc cg members, jessey, jacky, andrew and grace came over.
i clean the room. night- went to angel's scot pine unit. it's huge and, nice but it's shared by 8 ppl. it's like going for a party there. don't think i can study there. went there to do CF booth deco till bout 1 am

first day of school- went with jas to set up the booth. our booth looks pretty attractive with the striking orange background and CF t shirts. we played planetshakers soundtrack in the background. gave out flyers and took down contacts.
good thing the orientation committee shifted the timetable board to south lobby. so more ppl gathered there and saw our booth. saw many of my coursemates.

first class was advance financial accounting. lecture room was quite cold.
lecturer not bad.

tues- did some cleaning , audit lecture quite funny.
phek lian and carolyn shifted in. went to pasar malam. went to joeuena's birthday dinner.

wednesday. only have one tutorial in the morning. english for management. the theater room was freeeezing cold. First Cf meeting of the year. had fun n good food.

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3- months-holiday recap
Sunday, January 02, 2005 7:30 PM

these are just my jottings of events and activities that occured during my 3-months-holiday. i'll write more about them soon if i have the time.

Sept~ taught part time in a primary school
7-10 Oct~ UTAR CF camp in Raub,
Oct-Nov~ continued teaching
14 Nov ~went for CF's Christmas Mega Event Rehearsal at PJEFC
17-23 Nov~ family trip to Hong kong ang china
28 Nov~ met steph and beebee before steph leave for germany
29 Nov~ mum went to taipei, so i took up new roles in the house

2 Dec~ dental appointment.
5 Dec~ planetshakers concert( gave up church drama tickets to catch this concert)
11-13 Dec~ suppose to go for CF planning retreat in camerons, but did make it.
appointed as main committee secretary
14 Dec~ buddies reunion aka pizza making day
17 Dec~ went KLIA to welcome mum back
18 Dec~ class reunion at centre point, BU
... Dec~ went shopping for new household items
22Dec~ CF main comm meeting
24 Dec~ FAM CF meeting
26 Dec~ hair cut
27 Dec~ news of tsunami disaster
31 Dec~ Watchnight

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